Monday, November 29, 2010

跟你说的话

本来因该上床睡了。。。
睡到一半,电话响。。其实也不太想接,还是接了。
是他~ 这几天,金钱方面真的很紧。
不,该说自从零用钱让他负责,我的钱包真的很紧。
打来,就要问我找工找到怎样。告诉我这次是最后一次给我零用钱。
很抱歉告诉你,这些话,真的很不好听!我都睡不着了。

我很不明白。。为什么牵涉到我。。
你要孝敬父母,有很多方式。
我的学费生活费,以后我会自己来报答。。那是我以后该做的。
你跟我说你没钱了。不久后要搬家,开销很大。
那你没有能力为什么要硬着头皮说你可以?
你负担的很辛苦,我要顾虑的东西也很多,我忍受得很辛苦。
你懂不懂我没有权利去选择,我被押得很辛苦。

我要比人董事,妈说。。哥对你那么好,你得空的就多点照顾他。
我不喜欢歉人。本来想你给我钱。。我要每天按时煮好晚餐给你就好了。
以为我只要做得好,你不会觉得负担得辛苦。
可是事实并不是那样。
回国之前,想做的很多东西,好像昨天发梦,今天消失。
为什么每次都是这样?
烦恼总是一直还在?!
我每天笑,其实我对你们的压力已经看得很开,有时真的要被逼疯了!
了解我的感受的人,为什么都是外人?!
我可不可以享受我的大学回忆?!旅行费我要怎么办?
为什么这个责任最后还是回到我这里?


Thursday, July 15, 2010

holiday mood =D

guess what.....
there is still lots pressure for me in holidays...
but, there is a day i really enjoy myself wif sista =)

YESTERDAY~
at 1st, is such a crazy idea from her...
coffee in borders with books.
anything for me,i got no other activities going on my holidays...
i were thought as long as its spending my time....
walk under the rain wif her to Borders....
drives us crazy with the rain...
after the drinks we ordered comes to us...
i would say..... its better than everything =)
my drinks => cookies mocha wif cream + own service caramel!!! wont know how much i put on my cream...ahaha
it definitely changed our mood....

was decide to study the novel there.....
we love the environment...
quiet.... and comfortable =)
end up, we still have our girl's talk...
enjoy the chitchat wif u sista... =D
LOVE IT~~




Both of us found a interesting truck near by...=D
can u imagine the truck tat covered with grass?
interesting idea...aha!
ROCK MELBOURNE!! ROCK~~~
know what? yesterday he told me he is coming next saturday.
i was shock really....
cant imagine time had past so fast.... ady 5months!
i book the skybus quickly and cant wait to see him....=P
he is coming he is coming he is coming~~~ =D



Sunday, July 11, 2010

你就这样走了吗?

是我变了吗?
你说我们的想法不再一致。。。
就在我听那首歌时。。。你传来一样的歌词。。。
我不懂,这是什么。。你看不到了吗?

你,不再拉回我进那圈子里了。。。
你难道忘了。。。我吩咐过你,一旦我冲动时,一定要记得拉我回去?
你说到那么委屈。。。我还能不放手吗?
没想到,我一说,你真的放了。。。

之前对你的坚持。。。不需要了吗?
跟爸妈的冷战。。 好像又是我的多余举动?
心里位子,还是你,永远是你。。。可是。。。
你结束了吗?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rgInHvW8Ic&feature=player_embedded

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

homesick

had my homesick for 2days...
trying to relax myself with sleep and movies..
feel to stick home when i really not in mood..
mum's call last nite... is not the word that i hope to listen really...awww..
but fine, still the same... 我可以!

yesterday found the interesting part of my favorite..
used to collect japanese model in KL..love the detailing of handmade stuff.
when i found out there is own made series, it make me mad of searching! =)
well, he will help me look for it in KL too....thx darling =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZSo80p2eVNs&feature=player_embedded

he know im not really in mood...to cheer me up wif this...
both of them r really similar always..=)
thx dar...

Monday, June 28, 2010

朋友的温暖












我做工了。。。
工作环境并不好。。。
为了钱。。 我把头发扎起来。。。
为了钱。。我忍受无端端被骂。。。
为了钱。。再烧的烘炉,再热的热水。。
我告诉自己我可以!

最近,我们朋友又加多了。。
那天的picnic是我由此以来笑到最开心的一天。。。
晚上冷冷的天气下一大班喝茶。。是暖暖的心情。。。
beer nite的欢乐,真的抛开很多烦恼。。。
有时,很感激有那么多的朋友一起出国留学。。这个机会真的很难得。。。
有时吵吵闹闹,有时不开心。。。但开心的回忆并不少。。
离开从小长大的家。。。离开他。。。自己学习的自立,让我无时无刻要告诉自己---我可以!
朋友啊,很庆幸有你们。。。 116 和 315
有时,真的不想呆在静静的家。。。
最近,多亏有时你们肯收留我。。。
恐怖片,凉茶,宵夜,零食,啤酒,早餐。。。真的暖暖的。。。感激。。
朋友。。。真的谢谢你们。。。=)


p/s: sorry miss c...i used ur pic...i love all ths pic...awesome=)

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

无言的心情

终于放假了。。日子并没有想象中的好。。。
压力还是一直会跟随,烦恼还是一直会奉陪。。
没错。。。年龄越大,很多事都会让自己无言。
除了无言,还是无言。。。
很多事情,并不是你想这样,它就能随着你要的方式去配合你。
就这样,我们一直学习怎么配合人和事情。
学校要配合,朋友要配合,家长要配合,外面也要配合, 家里也要配合,。。
很累,时时刻刻都要让自己在安全的situation.要很小心。。
话不能说太多,不然就会说错话。
本人很爱说话。。。所以每次都会后悔之前说错了什么。

今天由此一来,一个人出去走。。。
以前在sunway有心事就自己乱乱走。。。
今天除了找工作,突然发现很久消失的习惯又回来了。找工并没有想象中简单。
走着让一间间拒绝。。。并不好受。
想让我的药满足我的心情,才发现其实它今天的效率有点弱。再出名的,再好吃的。。对我来说,没差。不是它不够好,而是我的问题吧。。。



一个人坐在河边很久,冷。。。但冷到没感觉了。啊!!
怎么他们都说一样的话!! 想念妈妈,打回去。。。也是不过是酱。。
从来没有伸手或开口跟他们要买什么浪费钱的东西。。。 为什么要磨炼我。
两份工。。你真的把它想象中那么简单吗?!
要的鼓励,返回来的劝告。。
他要怎样,我就得怎样去做。。。受够了!!!
我又能怎样??
他要我说的话。。。
老实说,我都搞不清楚谁有问题。可能我并没有他那么自信。
很抱歉,我说不出口。。。我只能用沉默回应。
无言。。。。还是无言。。。

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Finally~~~~~~~~

>yea, finally we r done....bye for our busy life and continue our holiday~
there r tons of assignment to block me update my blog...
no joke...seriously busy till forgot to bath or eat.

recently i was happy i found a person tat i really can talk to...
Emily, the 1st partner i hav in swinburne uni.
1st always come with the best.....hav my 1st smkb sista, 1st toa sista, and now 1st swinburne...=)she is mature enough for me to talk to. she always make me feel better,like having a sista taking care of me... against....we hav the same situation mayb. stay far from campus. far from the circle, yet we hav the same feeling from others. i felt grateful i found her here and i learned to appreciate things beside me nowadays. I learned by the thing I lost…sometimes things might lost accidentally, and it doesn’t last longer, muz appreciate time by time, every movement. Happy for the day Emily stay wif me. We work hard 2gether, emo 2gether, cook, eat, sleep and so on. Since how long, my house didn’t get warm from others. Miss the time when 8ppl in my house… =)







Hmm, the 1st thing finish the presentation, I called my mum. Really thankful for the food she prepared b4 she back to m’sia. It make us last for quite many days and I can concentrate my final project without cook.



Awww….talk bout food, im getting hungry time to time in winter now. It is too cold, and I feel to eat all the time. I hope I did’t gain my weight from that. I Still miss the breakfast that I have wif lilina in chapel street. After the final project, I found myself addicted by COFFEE….gosh~~~